Gue punya adik yang berumur kurang lebih 4 tahun, kayaknya (gue lupa tanggal lahirnya).

Kenalan dulu deh sama adik gue, itu fotonya ada disebelah kiri. Namanya Raihan Al-fatah.

Untuk seukuran anak umur segitu yang kerjaannya cuma makan ayam goreng dan minum Bir susu, doi memang tergolong anak yang cerdas. Meskipun masih cadel2, tapi dia udah jago ngaji. Kalo gue dulu pas seumuran dia udah jago bohong.

Layaknya anak normal kebanyakan, doi juga suka banget nonton film kartun yang ada di tv-tv. Sebut saja shinchan, doraemon, naruto, one piece, bernard bear, termehek-mehek, realigi, putri yang ketuker sama koran bekas, masih dunia lain, dll.

Suatu hari, ketika gue sehabis pulang dari kampus, gue mendekati adik gue yang terlihat kebingungan di depan tv. Sewaktu dia liat gue dateng, dia langsung menghampiri gue sambil bilang.

“Mas, Aku mau nonton pecun doong, pecun! Pokoknya pecun! Cariin pecun!”  Sontak gue kaget mendengar request-nya yang metal.

“Buseet… yang bener nih?!” Gue bertanya balik.

“iyaaa, pecuuuuuunnnnn!!!!!” Sekarang gue mulai dikatain pecun.

Jelas gue kaget, wayakalii deh anak umur segitu udah kenal pecun, darimana coba?! Gue kagak pernah bawa pecun ke rumah juga.

Terlintas dalam pikiran gue, kalo anak umur segitu udah kenal pecun gimana nanti pas remaja. Gila juga nih adik gue, gaul abis!

Tak lama tiba-tiba nyokap gue datang bagaikan malaikat jibril memberi penerangan untuk menyelesaikan masalah.

Entah karena koneksi batin yang kuat ato emang sering main bareng jadi ngerti bahasanya, lalu nyokap gue bilang dengan santainya.

“SPACE TOON itu maksudnyaaaa!!!”

“Hah???! Ya Alloh..."

"Iya, Pecun!!!" Soraknya gembira.

Tadinya gue kira memang adik gue sudah kenal pecun sejak dini karena pengaruh internet dan tayangan-tayangan tv yang gak jelas itu. Untungnya gue gak menanggapinya dengan serius dengan bilang...

“Iyaaa ya udah. Bentar yaaa… Mas cariin dulu di Parung."

No wind no rain (kaga ada angin kaga ada ujan), out of the gray, between the beetle and the block, to be honest, its hard to deal with either the loss of someone or something special in your life. Theres nothing else can fill up. Wow!


Feeling of that people used to call emptiness. I’d rather call it in other way as loneliness, though.


I once curhat (theres no proper word to replace ‘curhat’ in my dict) with my new-friend at work after she asking me several intro questions like: why I look sooo sleepy everyday, what’s wrong with my eyes, have I got enough sleeps? Have I got a sleep deprivation? Or I just don’t sleep at all?


“Whoaaaaaa… I’m popped out! You’ve just met me for few weeks and you’ve just succeeded guessing my characteristic already? Are you a psychic or something?????”


“I see you often stretching and yawning when talking to people. I’m just wondering why you always had sleepy days at work.”

”Really??! No I’m not…!!!! Hooaaahhhmmm”


“There you go again, dummy!”


“okaayyy… Firstly, I’d love to tell you something about my drowsy eyes. You’re not the first person commenting these eyes. Completed with this skinny body, some people say I’m so looked like a drug driller, a junkie, and an alcoholic.”


“Well, that’s totally untrue, is that?”

“People like me??! Oh, comeee oooon!!!”

“God gave me these kind of eyes for me. It’s been like 21 years within my age. And about this skinny body, I can never get any more weight!”


“Secondly, I’m an insomniac. I scarcely got off to sleep before 12 pm.”


“Thirdly, except these drowsy eyes, I really am feeling something of people used to call it Emptiness. I couldn’t define Emptiness though. Perhaps, this is the kind of feeling which needs to reassure all the time. Maybe I need more tons of patience and love all around.” Grinning foolishly like a 10 year-old boy being punched by his younger girlfriend.


“aaaaaa no wonder…! You’d better go find it quickly to get out of the blue then. Go find at the mall!”


“hwe?! why mall anyway????” shrugging confusedly



*wuuusssshhhh…. she disappeared just like a demon.